阿口 我鍾意將野躉入你果度
掟奶茶話梅墨魚入去好似焚化爐
放埋蕭 放埋口琴 香口膠 都仲未爆
仲居然有空位剩 吹口哨
阿口 我鍾意係你果度整野出黎
但求自己快慰 擘大個咀仔就黎喇
講笑談心 呃大話 慰問娘親
不含真心 純粹發音 但係相當霖
抹咀 深呼吸 大力啜啖煙
你要哭訴或嘔吐或講數 請你自便
無野食繼續講野 未喊就笑住先
Tum夠就講真話 鬧完鍚啖先
出入口 實在都係呢度
食乜話乜 做乜你係通道
我一世既快感 陷扮爛 非常口
盡量郁 有幸福 我地得把口
* * * * * * * *
剝完牙,腦海立即閃過這一首歌
開刀的時候
口果然是非常口
除了可容立一支吸管
以及把口撐大的鐵支以外(確實是這樣恐怖)
還放得下手術刀,各式的電鋸
口被撐大
人便不能放鬆
而由於注射了麻醉藥的緣故
我實在不知道自己的口是否擘得夠大
再加上那些電動東東的聲音
我不由自主的彊硬起來
腦海中哼著amazing gil
以深呼吸對抗那種可怕的感覺
回到家
人也變得暴躁
硬著頭皮把過量的口水混和血水吞下去
想要吃東西卻什麼也吃不下
最後只能吃yogurt,飲湯和yogurt drink
但求有那麼一點點的東西在胃裡好讓我可以服藥
禁不住想起昨晚dan ryan的大餐來...
下星期要拆線
口呀口,你要爭氣啊!
Friday, June 30, 2006
Thursday, June 29, 2006
水.............點
浴室的地板總是濕漉漉的
紅色的膠盤
鐵綉色的水龍頭
靠那點點的水滴牽引著
水點偶爾又再從膠盤一躍
跳到地上來
成就一個麥兜的故事
時間不知不覺的流逝
隱形眼鏡又快要用光了...
不是前兩天才洗過衣服嗎?
最討厭便是晾衣服,摺衣服的了...
嬌嬌的廁所那陣氣味
每天的指定動作,最富生活感的習慣
就從下一站,依利沙伯鎮的一個鏡頭開始
時間積少成多的
一點一滴.............................
不知不覺待在這裡多少個寒暑
是老掉牙的不知不覺
最落俗套但總是說漏了嘴
由相擁取暖的冬天
到生人勿近的夏天
由捲曲著身體令雙腳更和暖的日子
到悶熱的赤裸裸躺在床上
等待一陣微風劃破凝固了的空氣
然後又再回到那個靜止的世界
紅色的膠盤
鐵綉色的水龍頭
靠那點點的水滴牽引著
水點偶爾又再從膠盤一躍
跳到地上來
成就一個麥兜的故事
時間不知不覺的流逝
隱形眼鏡又快要用光了...
不是前兩天才洗過衣服嗎?
最討厭便是晾衣服,摺衣服的了...
嬌嬌的廁所那陣氣味
每天的指定動作,最富生活感的習慣
就從下一站,依利沙伯鎮的一個鏡頭開始
時間積少成多的
一點一滴.............................
不知不覺待在這裡多少個寒暑
是老掉牙的不知不覺
最落俗套但總是說漏了嘴
由相擁取暖的冬天
到生人勿近的夏天
由捲曲著身體令雙腳更和暖的日子
到悶熱的赤裸裸躺在床上
等待一陣微風劃破凝固了的空氣
然後又再回到那個靜止的世界
Monday, June 19, 2006
Conversation with a Spiritual Guy/ide
thank you very much ..
her words really touch me..and tears just roll down out of control..
ha, that is good
you got a key to your need
just hope more teachers will come to me..
sure, i think it will come when time ready
rite!
kenny is also one fo my teachers..
haha..
i dunno..i feel like i dun have much 'feeling of affinity' with ppl who is older than me..like the old teachers from school...my older colleagues
so your guide are helping you to create it
rite
actually , it is hard at first to get verbal message
they like just show up, let u see, and know how it looks like
you see? no matter how skillful in listening the angels, you are not entirely care-free, as you still need to work on yourself while they bring assistance
what is the meaning of not enitrely care-freel?? u mean even u can listen to angels, they can't solve anything for u?
they can't solve anything for us
they can give u guidance and help you to solve things
control is in myself
but u need to learn how to be opened , ask, and trust their guidance
aaa..u are teaching me sth from ur experience..haaa
let see, you got a soldier, but how u trust him is still a learning for u
and learning -- it takes time, it takes experiene, it takes heart
so, ask the angels , can help u to create miracles sometimes
but still there are some areas you need to learn
even i cannot hear them.?
yes
it is ok, the learning process is still beautiful
everytime, you see yourself trust more, open your heart more
you will be glad
to trust that my inner feeling is actually the guidance from him?
not only this
like
and?
when i felt lost in my work before
i was guided to take an office work
and "coincidence" happen, i got the work immediately
so, i need to trsut what is happening
and then it seem all of this driving me away from my spiritual practice
for some people, they will be worried, feel "oh, i am not mean to work on such things, better to accept normal life"
but for me, after experiencing life, I know my talent, and my higher purpose is to teach others about spirituality
i keep trusting , as an inner feeling tell me that it is going to be ok
i mean if people got sth seems oppoiste to what they want, they will be worried that thing can never go well and then things happening,
i met Yolanda two weeks ago
we become fds, and find so much of same interest
and we start holding workshop like today, and it went smooth, and i got lots of ppl coming
and i also find my ability to tune to angels is stronger now
so, how about if i don't trust on universe, and didn't follow what they guide me,
i may not manifest all these things today
that is the "trust" i am talking about
"Trust" when things seem go wrong
sometimes, univese want u to decided to trust , before they can show u your path
so u mean sometime stay where i am is not that bad?
and maybe i will find sth i want here?
yes!
after the first week of office work
i feel, oh, how come it doesn't suit me so much
but later, when i tune into the higher meaning of this
I know i am learning so many things here
learn how to organise my work, learning to stand up with my belief, learn to open my heart, learn to deal with "non-spiritual" ppl, and it is a way to help me to discover and build up more passionate and commitment to my spiritual work
and maybe at first, it seem i am not in a good position
but actually, you are there for only one reason -- you are calling it to yourself for learning to be what u really want
so unless i learn what i need to..the universe will never let me go away without learning
actually, do u know what the meaning of "all-loving god?"
u mean all the things happening have their own meaning..and are loving?
"all-loving" mean, God will give you complete freedom to choose! he give you all the power to create your life !
so? So you need to decide how to use your power, God will never interfere.
But still, he sends Angels, and Guide to help us as God know we may need help
but we need to ask first, Angels and Guide still cant interfere our wills
it is not Universe not allow you to move on
it is actually, Universe is just supporting your inner decision
that is why, to be aware of what you are going inside, learning to ask about the higher meaning of the situation is veryimportant!
you need to know what is holding you back
it is no one, but yourself
i will copy and paste ur words in my blog....haaaa
haha
ok..but what if i'm a indecisive person..than i dun know what is my decision
ha.. so, you have got a lesson
which is?
indecisive
to manifest sth, you need to be absolute clear
how to make it clear
not clear in your logical sense or "i am really want" stage
but in a clear inner feeling : "i am going to make it for sure"
from heart u mean
so universe will start showing you help, road, and concidence
but to achieve such stage, you need to clear some old fears and blockages, so now, it is what the healing , counseling , energy work come to play
it help u to shift
looking forward to it...
yeah~ Life has so much to offer if u know how to accept it
why ppl r so stubborn?
ppl are stubborn, as they dont know how the universe work
and human brain tend to keep things stable
and the fear , the oppoiste of love, make you fear to trust and use your own power
no ga..i'm waiting for change ga..
that is good
so go on it
ask for it
be clear of it
and get it!
her words really touch me..and tears just roll down out of control..
ha, that is good
you got a key to your need
just hope more teachers will come to me..
sure, i think it will come when time ready
rite!
kenny is also one fo my teachers..
haha..
i dunno..i feel like i dun have much 'feeling of affinity' with ppl who is older than me..like the old teachers from school...my older colleagues
so your guide are helping you to create it
rite
actually , it is hard at first to get verbal message
they like just show up, let u see, and know how it looks like
you see? no matter how skillful in listening the angels, you are not entirely care-free, as you still need to work on yourself while they bring assistance
what is the meaning of not enitrely care-freel?? u mean even u can listen to angels, they can't solve anything for u?
they can't solve anything for us
they can give u guidance and help you to solve things
control is in myself
but u need to learn how to be opened , ask, and trust their guidance
aaa..u are teaching me sth from ur experience..haaa
let see, you got a soldier, but how u trust him is still a learning for u
and learning -- it takes time, it takes experiene, it takes heart
so, ask the angels , can help u to create miracles sometimes
but still there are some areas you need to learn
even i cannot hear them.?
yes
it is ok, the learning process is still beautiful
everytime, you see yourself trust more, open your heart more
you will be glad
to trust that my inner feeling is actually the guidance from him?
not only this
like
and?
when i felt lost in my work before
i was guided to take an office work
and "coincidence" happen, i got the work immediately
so, i need to trsut what is happening
and then it seem all of this driving me away from my spiritual practice
for some people, they will be worried, feel "oh, i am not mean to work on such things, better to accept normal life"
but for me, after experiencing life, I know my talent, and my higher purpose is to teach others about spirituality
i keep trusting , as an inner feeling tell me that it is going to be ok
i mean if people got sth seems oppoiste to what they want, they will be worried that thing can never go well and then things happening,
i met Yolanda two weeks ago
we become fds, and find so much of same interest
and we start holding workshop like today, and it went smooth, and i got lots of ppl coming
and i also find my ability to tune to angels is stronger now
so, how about if i don't trust on universe, and didn't follow what they guide me,
i may not manifest all these things today
that is the "trust" i am talking about
"Trust" when things seem go wrong
sometimes, univese want u to decided to trust , before they can show u your path
so u mean sometime stay where i am is not that bad?
and maybe i will find sth i want here?
yes!
after the first week of office work
i feel, oh, how come it doesn't suit me so much
but later, when i tune into the higher meaning of this
I know i am learning so many things here
learn how to organise my work, learning to stand up with my belief, learn to open my heart, learn to deal with "non-spiritual" ppl, and it is a way to help me to discover and build up more passionate and commitment to my spiritual work
and maybe at first, it seem i am not in a good position
but actually, you are there for only one reason -- you are calling it to yourself for learning to be what u really want
so unless i learn what i need to..the universe will never let me go away without learning
actually, do u know what the meaning of "all-loving god?"
u mean all the things happening have their own meaning..and are loving?
"all-loving" mean, God will give you complete freedom to choose! he give you all the power to create your life !
so? So you need to decide how to use your power, God will never interfere.
But still, he sends Angels, and Guide to help us as God know we may need help
but we need to ask first, Angels and Guide still cant interfere our wills
it is not Universe not allow you to move on
it is actually, Universe is just supporting your inner decision
that is why, to be aware of what you are going inside, learning to ask about the higher meaning of the situation is veryimportant!
you need to know what is holding you back
it is no one, but yourself
i will copy and paste ur words in my blog....haaaa
haha
ok..but what if i'm a indecisive person..than i dun know what is my decision
ha.. so, you have got a lesson
which is?
indecisive
to manifest sth, you need to be absolute clear
how to make it clear
not clear in your logical sense or "i am really want" stage
but in a clear inner feeling : "i am going to make it for sure"
from heart u mean
so universe will start showing you help, road, and concidence
but to achieve such stage, you need to clear some old fears and blockages, so now, it is what the healing , counseling , energy work come to play
it help u to shift
looking forward to it...
yeah~ Life has so much to offer if u know how to accept it
why ppl r so stubborn?
ppl are stubborn, as they dont know how the universe work
and human brain tend to keep things stable
and the fear , the oppoiste of love, make you fear to trust and use your own power
no ga..i'm waiting for change ga..
that is good
so go on it
ask for it
be clear of it
and get it!
Sunday, June 11, 2006
Friday, June 09, 2006
遺失
本人遺失手提電話
如有拾獲,請電23543234,薄酬
要失去的時候
我們寧願失去代價較小的...
昨晚,終於鼓起勇氣煮了搬家後的第一頓晚飯
結果只有我一個人吃
氣在心頭...
還要受到別人的漫罵
不被尊重
要失去自尊嗎?
不,我寧可失去理性,失去感覺
賴在地上跟嬌嬌同眠
如果遺失了我
你寧可毫無代價的轉換一個新號碼,拖延著
還是乾脆的賠上千五大元
如有拾獲,請電23543234,薄酬
要失去的時候
我們寧願失去代價較小的...
昨晚,終於鼓起勇氣煮了搬家後的第一頓晚飯
結果只有我一個人吃
氣在心頭...
還要受到別人的漫罵
不被尊重
要失去自尊嗎?
不,我寧可失去理性,失去感覺
賴在地上跟嬌嬌同眠
如果遺失了我
你寧可毫無代價的轉換一個新號碼,拖延著
還是乾脆的賠上千五大元
Saturday, June 03, 2006
EXCESS
EXCESS一詞解作:
1. 超越,超過
2. 超額量
3. 過量,過剩
4. (飲食等的)過度,無節制
5. 過分的行為;暴行
友友的解釋:多餘!
友友對於我以廚房的設備不夠完善的理由,拒絕下廚
而那邊廂,他正自遺失手提電話後發憤圖強地戒煙
他以EXCESS來形容我的解釋
也反映他對這個現狀的不滿
我完全理解友友的心情
但真正EXCESS的是吸煙這個行為
就像你明明欠人家錢
還錢其實應該是天公地道的
還錢以後還要別人打賞
不是有點太過,也不合道理嗎?
這令我想起小學的時候
一位同學問老師
為什麼有些同學在改過或沒有再犯後會得到獎勵
但一向乖的同學卻什麼也沒有...
其實這是一個好問題
從心理學的角度
reinforcement和punishment確實對changing behaviour有一定的作用
但重點是你究竟reinforce了什麼行為呢...
說得太遠了...
對於友友的EXCESS
我只有會心微笑
對於友友戒煙的決心
我萬二分的支持
我之所以要在這裡事先張揚
其實是為了reinforce你的決心呀! Mr. C.J. 嘻嘻...
1. 超越,超過
2. 超額量
3. 過量,過剩
4. (飲食等的)過度,無節制
5. 過分的行為;暴行
友友的解釋:多餘!
友友對於我以廚房的設備不夠完善的理由,拒絕下廚
而那邊廂,他正自遺失手提電話後發憤圖強地戒煙
他以EXCESS來形容我的解釋
也反映他對這個現狀的不滿
我完全理解友友的心情
但真正EXCESS的是吸煙這個行為
就像你明明欠人家錢
還錢其實應該是天公地道的
還錢以後還要別人打賞
不是有點太過,也不合道理嗎?
這令我想起小學的時候
一位同學問老師
為什麼有些同學在改過或沒有再犯後會得到獎勵
但一向乖的同學卻什麼也沒有...
其實這是一個好問題
從心理學的角度
reinforcement和punishment確實對changing behaviour有一定的作用
但重點是你究竟reinforce了什麼行為呢...
說得太遠了...
對於友友的EXCESS
我只有會心微笑
對於友友戒煙的決心
我萬二分的支持
我之所以要在這裡事先張揚
其實是為了reinforce你的決心呀! Mr. C.J. 嘻嘻...
Thursday, June 01, 2006
也不夠
永遠覺得自己不夠好...對於某些criteria而言
於是推己及人,也覺得有點不夠
如果這個世界只有你和我
我們永遠是最好的,你知道嘛?
是看得招聘廣告的requirement太多?
人也變得picky了,小心眼...我一向也是
夠不夠 從不會參透
我給你 怎麼都不夠
如何如你願 完全無方向
窮無窮氣力 仍然談不上 沒有悶場
拆著禮物 心思 總不夠
記著片段 愛著 偏不夠
笑著抱著 吻著 都不夠
沒有盡頭...
已擁有 全不是虛構
你跟我 偏偏都追究
約誓太易 意義 怎足夠
決定決別 決絕 不足夠
哪月哪日 哪樣 方足夠
沒有盡頭...
五十個小時沒有吸一口煙
其實你已經夠好了
但比起這五十個小時
還是不夠的
如果每天都是新的一天
只有新的記憶
我會打扮成一個帶著一隻貓的女孩
來到你的家跟你玩上廿四小時
然後把貓兒平讓給愛貓的你
每天也是這個樣子...^-<
新奇的感覺,永遠是最好的
舊了的東西,不一定不夠好
於是推己及人,也覺得有點不夠
如果這個世界只有你和我
我們永遠是最好的,你知道嘛?
是看得招聘廣告的requirement太多?
人也變得picky了,小心眼...我一向也是
夠不夠 從不會參透
我給你 怎麼都不夠
如何如你願 完全無方向
窮無窮氣力 仍然談不上 沒有悶場
拆著禮物 心思 總不夠
記著片段 愛著 偏不夠
笑著抱著 吻著 都不夠
沒有盡頭...
已擁有 全不是虛構
你跟我 偏偏都追究
約誓太易 意義 怎足夠
決定決別 決絕 不足夠
哪月哪日 哪樣 方足夠
沒有盡頭...
五十個小時沒有吸一口煙
其實你已經夠好了
但比起這五十個小時
還是不夠的
如果每天都是新的一天
只有新的記憶
我會打扮成一個帶著一隻貓的女孩
來到你的家跟你玩上廿四小時
然後把貓兒平讓給愛貓的你
每天也是這個樣子...^-<
新奇的感覺,永遠是最好的
舊了的東西,不一定不夠好
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